Patrick And McCall

Amazing!

2010-11-20T19:11:00.000-08:00

Baby Jay Is amazing!! That's really all you need to know but I will give you examples for your reading pleasure!!
He now falls asleep ON HIS OWN (No more rocking, bouncing, nursing to sleep he just straight up goes in his crib and falls asleep and with nearly no fuss)!
He sleeps from 8pm to 6am
He smiles and giggles and it's just about the cutest thing ever
He is going on day 4 without his beloved binkie and he is being a real champ.
I love that little boy more than I ever thought possible.
Thanks for being such a good boy Baby Jay Mommy loves you!
XXOO

Day One: Something you hate about yourself

2010-11-09T11:03:00.000-08:00

Day One: Something You Hate About Yourself

I could write this post about the stretch marks that now line my boobs or the extra bazzilion pounds that are now clinging to my thighs because I HATE those things about myself, I do. But, I want to write about something I have to think a little bit harder about. . .

I hate my complete lack in self control. I have arguments with myself all day long becuase of the self control I do not posses. Once I get my head around something it's really hard for me to sway from that "something" even if it's not something I consciously choose. It could be--and a lot of the time is--a subconscious decisions. Once it’s decided I can't sway it no matter how hard I try. I have no self control. It's like something bigger than me is living in my brain and controlling my thoughts and subsequently my actions at times. I know I don't want to do something, I know I may regret the something once I have done it yet I cannot tell that bigger thing in my brain NO.

It can be a simple as eating a piece of candy (or the whole box) I know I will be mad at myself after I eat it, I know it is un-healthy and isn't going to help me reach my post-prego weight loss goal yet I CANNOT stop that little --no-- big voice in my head telling me to just eat the damn piece of candy.

I hate not being able to get through a day without having a battle with myself over something because of my lack in self control. I hate the battle.

I hate my lack in self control that is what I hate about myself right now tomorrow it may change, it may be different but today this is it.

OHHH Boy

2010-11-09T10:57:00.000-08:00

So I found this little list on a website. I have decided to give it a whirl. This list has some pretty scary subjects and by scary I mean brutally honest, raw subjects that are personal and some controversial so . . . here we go!

Day 01 → Something you hate about yourself.
Day 02 → Something you love about yourself.
Day 03 → Something you have to forgive yourself for.
Day 04 → Something you have to forgive someone for.
Day 05 → Something you hope to do in your life.
Day 06 → Something you hope you never have to do.
Day 07 → Someone who has made your life worth living for.
Day 08 → Someone who made your life hell.
Day 09 → Someone you didn’t want to let go, but just drifted.
Day 10 → Someone you need to let go, or wish you didn’t know.
Day 11 → Something people seem to compliment you the most on.
Day 12 → Something you never get compliments on.
Day 13 → A band or artist that has gotten you through some really tough days. (write a letter.)
Day 14 → A hero that has let you down. (letter)
Day 15 → Something or someone you couldn’t live without, because you’ve tried living without it.
Day 16 → Someone or something you definitely could live without.
Day 17 → A book you’ve read that changed your views on something.
Day 18 → Your views on gay marriage.
Day 19 → What do you think of religion? Or what do you think of politics?
Day 20 → Your views on drugs and alcohol.
Day 21 → (scenario) Your best friend is in a car accident and you two got into a fight an hour before. What do you do?
Day 22 → Something you wish you hadn’t done in your life.
Day 23 → Something you wish you had done in your life.
Day 24 → Make a playlist to someone, and explain why you chose all the songs. (Just post the titles and artists and letter)
Day 25 → The reason you believe you’re still alive today.
Day 26 → Have you ever thought about giving up on life? If so, when and why?
Day 27 → What’s the best thing going for you right now?
Day 28 → What if you were pregnant or got someone pregnant, what would you do?
Day 29 → Something you hope to change about yourself. And why.
Day 30 → A letter to yourself, tell yourself EVERYTHING you love about yourself

A Day Late And A Dollar Short

2010-10-30T07:47:00.000-07:00

Yes, Yes I know I said I would post every Friday but I promise seeing the pictures on this post will make it worth the wait :).
What is it about a dressed up baby that is just so friggin cute that no one

NO ONE

can resist sneaking a peak? There is nothing cuter than little kids in their costumes.

Exibit A The Very Sleepy Elephant

Exibit B A Very Sleepy Elephant And His Sleepy Lady Bug Friend :)
Aren't they adorable?

Halloween is such a fun time of year. I love the season, the holiday and the month.

October is my favorite month for many reasons

The colors change

I married my best friend this month (one year ago!! WOW)

The air is crisp and clean (well mostly)

And Halloween of course.

I think Halloween is a fun holiday. I think it's exciting and almost magical for little kids. I don't think it's evil or bad. Although I know there are some people who do think this and to each their own. But I would like to know. . .

What are your thoughts on Halloween?

Letters To You # 1

2010-10-25T17:23:00.000-07:00

I write letters to my son.
I hope he will appreciate them when he is older and that he will know that he has ALWAYS been loved.
I want him to know without a doubt that he is SOOO LOVED.
I have written these letters since I found out I was pregnant. I have just recently felt the need to share these letters. I'm not sure why and even feel a little embarrassed sharing such intimate emotions; such personal feelings with the world but I cannot ignore the pressing thoughts telling me to share these letters.
Without further adieu:
My Son, My World
I love you more and more with the passing days. I am honored and proud to be your mommy. I look at you each day and think "how could I love someone more", without fail the next day my love for you grows.
I'm not sure what I did to deserve such a gift. I'm not sure I do deserve you. I hope I do. The happiness you bring to my life is indescribable. The love you have planted in my heart is magical.

I. am. in. awe. of .you.

The way you have helped me grow as a human being. You have showed me and taught me so much in your short time here, perhaps more than any other. I thank Heavenly Father for you; for your sweet spirit that helps me to know my purpose here; for your graceful presence that reminds me of my Heavenly Fathers love; and for your beautiful, perfect little body that reminds me of the purpose we have: to come to this earth to receive a body. The love I feel for you my boy is something fierce.
XOXO

Mommy

A month?

2010-10-22T08:49:00.000-07:00

WOW!! Its already been a month since I posted on this silly blog. Time seriously flies these days. I am going to make a vow. . . ready?

I, McCall McMonigle, Vow to write on this blog at least once a week!

There you have it. I think I'm going to make it on Fridays and maybe, just maybe you will get a few posts in between but we will see about that.

It seems all I have time for these days is being a mom and I am perfectly happy with that. But there comes a time (and folks the time has come) when I need to start remembering my other duties. Like, for example being a wife! My poor husband probably thinks he has been forgotten about, I don't make dinner any more sheesh I don't even go grocery shopping. There are only so many things you can make with milk (you know like chocolate milk, strawberry milk). Starting today (with a grocery shop) I am going to try to start remembering my other roles that I need to play other than mommy. My husband will be grateful I assure you. No one loves a meal waiting for him when he gets home from work like that husband of mine.

On a different note, the man child is getting big. He is 8 weeks old and I can't believe it!

The Tiny Toot at just 2 days old

And Now (This was taken on the 6th of Oct.)

He is just the cutest thing I think I ever did see. I has been gaining weight like its no ones business and he is so tall. I weighed myself the other day then weighed myself again holding him and according to that method of weighing (it's not the most accurate) he weighs 14 pounds. HOLY COW!! He is wearing size 3-6 month clothes and even some 6-9 months too!

He is such a sweet boy. He is becoming more and more easy going as the weeks go by and the best thing of all. . . He smiles now. So if you happen to see me making a you-know-what out of myself it is probably to make my son smile. : )

Being a mom is the greatest gift I have ever been given. I thank my Heavenly Father every day for this precious little boy he is trusting me to raise. I am so proud to be his mama!

The birth of Kainen Jay

2010-09-20T19:36:00.000-07:00

The birth of our beautiful baby boy was exactly what we had planned for- a peaceful, natural birth with no medication or medical interventions. Throughout my pregnancy Patrick and I practiced hypnobirthing and were eager and excited to put all of our practice to use. We attended classes, I practiced every day, and we did our birth companion scripts about 3 times a week. It was the most amazing experience I have ever had and I am so happy to be a mommy.

I started to have contractions around 1 o’clock pm on August 24th, I didn’t really think anything of it and continued on with my day, they started to get really regular so I texted Patrick and told him “I don’t know but this may be it” we were both getting really excited. About an hour later my contractions settled down and only happened about once every 30 min-they were very mild. I told Patrick that they had calmed down, no need to leave work. I continued about my day and my contractions started up again they were about every 15 minutes from about 6-10. Patrick and I took a walk around 8 to see if that would make the contractions more frequent. While on our walk my contractions did pick up a bit, and each contractions I had “fluid” come out (if you think that’s too much information you should stop reading now). I thought that maybe I was losing control of my bladder the first time it happened then when it happened each time I had a contraction I realized it was probably my bag of waters (Patrick hates that it’s called that by-the-wayJ) I was a bit confused though, as I thought that the bag of waters would rupture all at one time, not trickle out with each contraction. Patrick and I had a good laugh about it and continued our walk. We returned home and my contractions were still pretty consistent but not I-need-to-go-to-the-hospital consistent. I called my lovely Sister-in-law to ask her some questions (she is a doula and a fabulous one at that!) I knew I could trust her not to tell a soul we “may” be in labor and I knew she would answer my questions much better then Google! And she did! At this point my contractions were still consistent so we did what any couple in labor do . . . we went to bed. (What that’s not what you did when you were in labor with your first born). About a half hour after laying down my contractions started to get a little stronger and closer and closer together. I was timing them on my phone. It was about 1230 and they had been consistenly 5 min apart for close to an hour. Right as I was waking Patrick up to tell him the good news my water broke.

“Babe wake up my contractions. . . Oh my gosh I think my water just broke”.

“What do you mean you think”?

“I’m not sure can you turn the light on”?

And sure enough my water had broken (all over our bed if you must know, if this is too much information I would suggest you stop reading now J). At 12:45am on August 25th we were well on our way to holding our baby in our arms. We were both so excited. I decided I would take a shower and stuff before we went to the hospital so I took a shower and Patrick got everything ready and in the car (including a towel for me to sit on so I wouldn’t get amniotic fluid on my car seat. Ha what a thoughtful husband I have)! We got to the hospital at 2:45am when we walked into the hospital the security man tried to make me get in a wheel chair which of course I declined, how many times do I have to tell you people, I’m pregnant not in need of a wheel chair thanks! We got all situated in our room and they monitored the baby and checked to see what I was dilated to. I asked to have limited vaginal exams so this was the only time she checked me until I asked her to later that morning. I was dilated to a 5 and 50% effaced. The baby was looking great and I was able to take off the monitors and walk around. I walked around my room, I had planned on walking around the hospital but decided I would just stay in my room, it was huge and I felt comfortable there. Patrick was the most amazing “birth companion” I could have asked for. He was so encouraging and helpful he did everything he could to keep me calm, and relaxed. He reminded me to breath and keep my body limp so as not to tense up. He helped me to relax when things did get tense and I couldn’t have done it without him. For the majority of my labor I walked around or used the birth ball. During my contractions I would lean on Patrick with my arms around his neck and he would hold me up and support me. This somehow made the contractions bearable, each time I had a contraction Patrick was there to support me and talk me through it. He really was amazing. I got my Hep lock around 3:30am and if any of you know me you know this is what I had been dreading!! Pushing a baby out was lower on my list of fears then getting this stupid thing. I hate needles, I hate how they poke you and then take your blood, I hate seeing the blood in those little vials, I hate the feeling I get when they are taking vial after vial of my blood, I HATE the whole experience, this was the only time during my labor that I cried! I have anxiety just writing about it. Weird right?

As things progressed I decided I would get in the tub and that my friends, was an excellent decision. The water made my contractions so much more manageable and was very relaxing. I didn’t stay in there long though, the water was way too hot and I started to feel sick so I got out and returned to walking around the birth ball. At this time my contractions were very intense and I decided I wanted to be checked again to see how far I had progressed. I was dilated to an 8, I knew I was very very close to wanting and needing to push. The nurse called my doctor at this point so that she could start coming to the hospital I was so glad she was on her way, I knew this baby was coming fast. Around this time my forbag (not sure what that is) started to come out I started to freak a little bit, I thought for sure it was the baby’s head, the nurse wasn’t in the room and I just pictured my baby dropping out on the floor I think I told Patrick, in a panic

“I feel the baby’s head, its coming out!! Get the nurse”

And all he said was

“Are you sure”?

What a funny husband! He was completely calm about it, he called my nurse and she came in and eased my fears, it wasn’t the baby’s head at all nothing to worry about just some weird bag thing that held my water I guess. . .? (Patrick then watched her claw at it with a hooked tool, glad I didn’t know about that till just now!)

I remember asking a billion times if Dr. Laine was there yet, I was so anxious for her to get there I’m not sure why. As soon as I saw her I felt relief and was ready to get my baby out. She checked me one more time just to be sure and sure enough I was dilated to a 10 and 100% effaced! She told me I could “bare down” at any time I was ready to go. During the next contraction I tried to counter it with some “breathing down” (a hypnobirthing term) and for me it didn’t seem to help so I decided to actually “push” (not the kind of pushing that you see on the movies though, my face didn’t turn purple and I didn’t burst blood vessels in my eyes, I learned to push only where I felt the baby’s head and I put this technique to use.) And boy did it help. It made my contractions seem not so bad and I knew that with each “push” my baby was getting closer and closer to being in my arms. During the last few minutes of pushing the babies heart rate kept dropping, he didn’t like when I would hold my breath to push and it showed on the heart rate monitor. I used an oxygen mask at this time to help get oxygen to him when I was taking a break from pushing and this really seemed to help. Each time I would push his heart rate would drop but as soon as I took a huge break of the oxygen it would be perfect again. For a minute there I was a little worried but my doctor was so confident that he was just fine that I was able to put my worry aside and do what I had to do. I “pushed” for less than 45 min. The last few pushes were so very intense, I could definitely feel what everyone refers to as the ring of fire (when the baby’s head crowns), and it was the most pressure I had felt yet. I remember Patrick telling me how well I was doing and that he could see our babies head, this gave me what I needed to try my hardest and get him out and that is exactly what I did. The last two pushes all I was thinking about was how close I was to holding my baby in my arms I was so excited and full of joy. And at 8:04 am on August 25th our baby boy was born. He was bright eyed and wide awake. He was so calm and peaceful he didn’t even cry until they rubbed him all over with the rags to wipe him off. He was (and is) the most beautiful thing I had ever seen. We waited for the cord to stop pulsing before Patrick cut it. Our baby was lying on my stomach and we are a family. It was one of the most amazing moments of my life.

Patrick and I took hypnobirthing classes to prepare for our birth. I would highly recommend these classes to anyone considering a natural birth and even if you aren’t considering a natural birth these classes are wonderful. I felt so confident during my labor and delivery and the hypnobirthing played a major role in this confidence. Although I didn’t use all of the techniques I thought I would during labor I know without a doubt all the practicing we did and the classes we attended helped me to achieve my goal of having a natural (non-medicated with no medical interventions) birth. I couldn’t be happier. Patrick was the most amazing support I could have asked for. He was by my side helping me 100% of the time and I couldn’t have asked for a better “birth coach” he really was amazing. I couldn’t have done it without his help and support. I am one lucky girl!!

Holy cow

2010-09-20T17:15:00.000-07:00

This past weekend the husband and I went to the Utah State Fair. . . If you are a "people watcher" this is an excellent place for you.

Man are there some strange people, and can I just say, the fair brings out the WORST in everyone. Its strange how the moment you step in the doors it seems like the manners go right out (the doors). I was ran into, stepped on and don't even get me started on the women I saw eating a corn dog in the most horrendous way possible (I was sick to my stomach)!

Anyway at the fair we saw cows. HUGE cows, little cows, cute cows, smelly cows all sorts of cows and that is when I had an epiphany. . . I am just like those cows in many ways point in case:

I am much larger then I used to be. (Although I have lost 3/4ths of the weight I gained)

I am somehow much smellier then I used to be, I swear I shower daily people I just am a whole lot smellier these days, frankly I don't understand it. Maybe two showers a day??

And the most cowish (yes it's a word) thing, I leak milk almost constantly. I usually have a little mutant (love you son) attached to my "udder" and I have a very large milk supply in my freezer that I "milked" out.

So you see, these days I am more cow then human and it seems that's the way its going to be fore the next little while.

MOOOOOOOOO

Our birth story

2010-09-14T17:00:00.000-07:00

He is here!!

Our beautiful baby boy was born on August 25th at 8:04 am. He weighed 8 lbs. 7 oz. and was 21 inches long. We were very successful with our natural birth and I couldn't be happier with the way things went. I wrote our "birth story" and am going to post it on here. I warn. . . it is very long winded and, well, a birth story so if you don't want to hear about mucus plugs and placenta I would recommend not reading it! For those of you who would like to know in a little less detail here it is. . .

I started have contractions on the 24th in the early afternoon, they weren't regular and they stopped and started randomly. That evening my contractions became much more regular but were still not I-need-to-go-to-the-hospital kinda contractions. Patrick got home that night and we decided to go on a walk to try and make my contractions stronger, it didn't really work or so i thought. Around 11 that night my contractions were very regular and 5 min before I was going to wake Patrick up my water broke. That was at 12:45am. We went to the hospital at 2:45 and got all situated. I labored from 2:45 to 8:04, at 8:04 our boy was born. It was an amazing experience and we had the natural birth we had been hoping and planning for (so take that all you doubters :)) He is a happy, calm baby and we couldn't be more happy!!

Stay tuned for the "official" birth story!!

Love

It's been crazy around here!!

2010-09-07T16:26:00.000-07:00

So. . . I have very very very exciting news!
BUT
I don't have the time at this time to give this news the time it needs to all be written out so until then. . .
I want you all to go to this webiste

dofunstuff.net

And I want you to buy that album!! Then I want you tell your friends about the AWESOME, AMAZING album you just bought and how the procedes for the album go to an AMAZING cause that is going to change peoples lives for the better!! So just do it!!

If you are a little sceptical still go and click on "OUR CAUSE" at dofunstuff.net and find out all about this amazing guy named Ryan Marshall and His LB. The little boy will melt your heart! And if you STILL don't want to buy the album you should probably just go punch yourself in the face!!!

Love
P.S. When I have time I will write all about your exciting news!! :) it will be juicy!! and it will be soon :)

Just when I thought. . .

2010-08-04T16:45:00.001-07:00

Just when I thought I was really getting good at this blog thing and keeping it updated and such, my brain stopped working and I don't care.
Until my brain starts working again I will leave you with a list--My happy list--of a few things that have made me really happy lately. . .
1. The smell of rain on concrete
2. Seeing my babies lims poke out in my belly
3. The thunder storms and middle-of-the-night rains
4. My amazingly awesome Husband
5. Sleep
6. Reading scriptures before bed with said Husband
7. Laughing uncontrolably
8. The conversations I have with Husband right before we fall asleep
9. Green, Green, Green Grass
10. Singing in the car, then feeling the need to apologise to my unborn child for my horrible singing voice :)
Love

An update of sorts

2010-07-25T19:01:00.000-07:00

So, The Husband and I went on our last camping trip this weekend. The last for me at least, it was fun and I am ~~really glad its over~~ glad to be home. I am a little bit sad that I won't be going anymore this summer but not really because that means our baby is coming SOON!!! And personally, giving birth on a dirt road 100 miles away from civilization just doesn't sound THAT fun. So my days of dirt roads are done for awhile--and for that I am happy.

Side note: This (picture above) is The Husband and I at one of the lakes we went to recently!

Have any of you ever driven on a dirt road?? How about a really really bumpy dirt road?? How about a really really bumpy dirt road while you are 35 weeks pregnant? I can tell you right now its not THAT fun. Its kind of a bit awful actually. I lived and so did the Snug (our baby) BUT I will not be going on ANY dirt roads ANY time soon. Here are a few pictures from our recent trips!

Me and my first very own fish!! Just a little guy!

I was so excited when I caught this fish!! It was the first fish I have ever caught by myself, I bought a fishing license and everything!! It was like being 5 years old all over again. . .Yes I was THAT excited!

The Husband and his large fish. I just love that boy!!

This picture was taken at Strawberry Lake a lovely place if I do say so!!

And of course one of the dog. . .

This is Tephra, She's our dog. She's spoiled. We like her lots!

I am now 35 weeks pregnant. I am still really enjoying my pregnancy, everyone continues to ask me if I am miserable or they just say "You must be miserable", and honestly I am not. What is it with these people?? I mean yes there are a few things I would change like perhaps how I have to walk like an old woman for the first few hours after I wake up from a night of slumber because my bones ache. Or the fact that my feet look as though they have been inflated with air and could potentially pop at any moment. But honestly, miserable?? I am far from miserable. A bit uncomfortable I might give you that depending on the time of day but I imagine everyone who gains 35 pounds in less than 9 months is a little uncomfortable so therefor I have nothing to complain about!

The Husband and I are getting really excited, it's all we talk about these days. What will the Snug look like? When will he/she come? How much cheese will be on his/her skin when he/she comes out (the husband wonders)? And many more questions. It has all become very real :), we even tried out the car seat today, and. . . um . . . it was fun!!!! Weird.

Anyway this post has gone on far to long and frankly I am in need of some slumber. So until next time folks.

Natural Vehicle of Nature

2010-07-17T09:34:00.000-07:00

One vehicle I have always loved Is the Volkswagen Bus. There is just something about that car that I really just love. They have their pros and cons:

It's a pretty cool car yet it doesn't quite scream "hey look at me I'm a really cool car".

They are rare, not many people have them these days.

They aren't fast per say but is that they aren't supposed to be they're the "hey I'm just driving down the highway relaxing car".

You can sleep in them comfortably (well semi comfortably I would imagine, although not very comfortably when your 8 months pregnant but you get my point, right?). And really who doesn't want a car they can just pull over and take a nap in?? I would love to take a nap in my car (I would love to take a nap--well--really anywhere these days, remember, I have a sick addiction)!

The whole point in this discussion is that in hypnobirthing you are given a CD called Rainbow Relaxation, it is simply a "script" to help you to go into a very deep state of relaxation, it helps you to relax each area of your body while labeling this area with a color from a "beautiful rainbow". Sounds wacked, I know but stick with me here. Towards the end of the disc it says that our bodies are "Natural Vehicles of Nature".

At first I really liked this analogy, I liked being a natural vehicle of nature that my baby kinda just rides in until it meets its destination. I really liked this thought because I hate how a lot of people in the medical world treat your body as if it is some medical thing some machine that needs constant tuning and is never quite working as it should. I hate how my baby is treated as a tumor that needs to come out of there, so, this natural car thing really was a good thing for me. . .

That was until I started picturing that I AM a VW Bus each time I listened to this. Now all I can picture is how my body has turned into this massive, comfy, pretty cool but not really cool thing. My baby is just chillin in this bus. Riding down this highway we call pregnancy in the bus with its shaggy carpet and Bob Marley tape playing in the tape deck, windows rolled down with the cool ocean breeze or warm womb liquids, whatever.

Either way; cool ocean breeze or warm womb liquids, I’m not sure I want to be a natural vehicle of nature any more. Now maybe if that car I pictured were a brand new mustang, I might be down with it but a VW bus I’m just not so sure about it!

2010-07-14T15:59:00.000-07:00

Sleep

sleep

Calling All Addicts

2010-07-08T14:16:00.000-07:00

I have a problem.

An addiction of sorts.

You all know how an addict acts, don't you?

They crave, their go to "drug"

They need, their fix.

They dream about; will do anything for it!

And that is precisely how I am feeling!!

I crave IT

I need IT

And yes I even dream about IT

What is IT you ask. . .

Well I'll give some hints

~I am 7.5 months pregnant

~IT isn't pickles OR ice cream

~In fact, IT isn't food at all (surprising I know)

~The average American does IT for 194,821 hours in a lifetime

Do you have any guesses as to what IT might be?

Check back tomorrow I'm to tired to write any more today!

Avoiding the sneeze at all costs

2010-07-08T10:04:00.000-07:00

One question:

When did sneezing become so uncomfortable.

Seriously?

If you know me you know that I sneeze ALOT and they always come in three's (or more). I never used to mind this sneezing in fact I actually enjoy CORRECTION enjoyed sneezing. Now, it seems every time I sneeze every bone in my body--well mostly my tailbone and pelvis bone--are going to break in two.

(Yes I know my pelvis bone is already a "three bone structure" so to speak just work with me here)

Its awful really. And I'm not sure I understand why its happening. The other night when I sneezed 5 times in a row I thought my pelvis bone was permanently damaged--In fact, I'm not so sure its not. And to top it all off my husband says to me "you knock that off" because OBVIOUSLY sneezing more then three times is totally offensive!

My bad!

Terrible, No Good Habit

2010-07-05T14:09:00.000-07:00

I have this terrible no good habit, we all have them. . . Don't we?? One of my worst terrible no good habits is procrastinating, in fact I've been meaning to write this post for over a week ; ) But procrastinating is not the bad habit I wish to speak of, I don't really know what to even call this bad habit but here is how it goes. . .

I feel terrible about wasting food, absolutely terrible and its not like I do it often, I don't but I hate to see food go to waste whether its my food or someone elses (and by someone elses I mean the babies I nanny!) food and this is where the problem begins. . .

I am not a garbage disposal, I do not need to consume all the food that the babies do not consume or leave uneaten. That food can be thrown away and I should not feel guilty, right? I have had this habit for quite some time, I used to do it to my little brother when we were younger, I would finish his leftovers after he was finished so they wouldn't go to waste. I feel this obligation to do it and from now on I will NOT!!

I am a human being!! Not a disposal or a landfill!!

Now if I can conquer this no good habit, procrastination will be next on my list!!!
What is your terrible, no good habit?

Hypno WHAT

2010-07-01T19:08:00.000-07:00

Hypnobirthing: A unique method of relaxed, natural childbirth, enhanced by hypnosis techniques, providing the missing link that allows women to birth naturally and sometimes painlessly.

Hypnobirthing for me has been more then just a birthing class! It has really helped me become more comfortable and excited--yes excited--about my birthing experience. I feel so much more prepared and dare I say empowered to birth this child.

When I tell people we are doing hypnobirthing they often have no clue what I am talking about. Hypnosis is a very misunderstood thing. Whenever we picture hypnosis or being hypnotized we picture a man at a fair asking us to come up on stage to make a fool out of ourselves. . . Am I right? We picture a swinging pendulum going back and forth "making us very, very, very sleepy". . . Right? Well I am here to tell you there is much more to hypnosis then this.

Hypnotherapy has been used for years to help people do many things such as:

Stop smoking

Lose weight

Conquer a fear

Decrease stress

When you are under hypnosis you are not under a spell. You have control over your body and your mind. If, once under hypnosis you are asked or told to do something that is against your moral beliefs you will bring yourself out of hypnosis you will not do anything you don't want to do. So, for example if you are in your hypnotherapists office and you are in hypnosis you will only do things that are morally right for you. If your hypnotherapist asks you to take of your clothes and dance around naked and if taking of said clothes and dancing around naked is against your moral beliefs you will simply bring yourself out of hypnosis. You have control!

I will not be asleep or under some weird spell while I give birth, I will be completely aware of what is going on, I will be able to go into/come out of "hypnosis" whenever I want to. "Hypnosis" is a very deep state of relaxation, nothing more, nothing less.

I hope that this clears up a bit of the confusion on the topic. I'll be the first to admit there are a few things that are a bit silly and a little out there when it comes to hypnosis but I am forever grateful for the experience and the confidence it has given me!

All Natural

2010-07-01T18:28:00.000-07:00

~~Everyone~~ People who have never researched or looked into natural child birth, look at me like I have gone crazy when I tell them I'm going all natural. Those who have looked into it and/or done it have a completely different outlook. I respect every ones opinions but I have to say, I enjoy hearing from those with the different outlook much more. We as women--our bodies--were made for this stuff. Our bodies were created to birth. We were created to host a fetus inside ourselves for 9 months (not only created for that of course we have many other purposes on this earth) and we were most definitely created to push that sucker out when the time has come.

I believe with all my heart that our baby is perfect for us in many, many ways and one of those ways is that little baby was made perfect for our bodies to house, our bodies to nourish and our bodies to birth naturally. And that is exactly what I am going to do. I am going to birth my baby naturally. Call me crazy but I have to tell you this is the way it was intended to be.

Don't get me wrong, I am very thankful to live in a time when medicine is so evolved. I am thankful everyday for the doctors we have and the medical equipment we have that give life, save life and better lives. I know that without this medical knowledge and equipment many lives would be affected; mine included.

I think its funny really, most of us women do all we can throughout pregnancy to make sure our baby is absolutely safe. We don't take medicine, we eat healthy; well thought out meals, and heaven forbid we do any drugs or drink alcohol. Yet, we go into labor and don't think twice before bombarding our bodies and our fetus with pitocin, epidurals, and many other drugs that most of us don't research or know anything about.

I am happy to say I am not one of those women. I have researched, I have read, listened to and re-read so much information I am almost embarrassed. . . almost but not quite! I am happy that I know exactly what is in pitocin, how long it stays in my body, how long it will stay in my babies body and the effects it may or may not have. I am happy to know without a doubt my baby will come out and will have never been introduced to any kind of drugs or anything that may have harmed his or her body.

With that said, I highly recommend everyone to do their research about EVERYTHING to do with their pregnancy, labor, and delivery. After all, this is THE ONLY TIME you will birth this baby. This is the only time you will deliver this perfect, special human into the world. And if after researching information after information you choose to do things the same as you would have before hand then so be it at least you will be a little more informed. But I ~~guarantee~~ bet your mind will be changed!

Post script: I know there are those very special circumstances where things just AREN'T happening, when medical intervention is absolutly necessisary. And for those very special circumstance I am thankful for medical knowledge and technology. I also KNOW those very special circumstance are far and few between!

Documentation

2010-07-01T09:13:00.001-07:00

So I haven't documented this pregnancy as much as I would have liked to and I really have no excuse as to why. I am not sure if anyone actually reads this nor do I care. This is just my space to document if you choose to read along! Great and Thanks :) So here is a bit of a recap as to what has happened in the. . . Oh last 7 months.

The First Trimester

The first trimester was really something let me tell you. I rolled around in nauseating agony, ate ginormous amounts of food to try to stop the nauseousness, and complained probably ALOT. I am normally not a complainer, with that said for those short weeks 13 weeks everyone who was around me probably

A. Wanted me dead

B. Wondered what my poor husband was thinking marrying such a lunatic.

Now that I think back on it, I had nothing to complain about; I only threw up 5 times total (besides the time I drank bad milk and threw up for 24 hours straight but I'd like to forget about that experience) and for that I am thankful.

I would rather gnaw off my own arm then throw up so you can imagine my relief (when thinking back) that I wasn't one of those IthrowupeverydayalldayuntilIgivebirth kinda girl.

My first trimester was simple. One thing I wish I would have done better was watching my caloric intake. I mean really all I did was eat and I gained about 15 pounds those first 13 weeks, how do you come back from that??

You can't!!

First Trimester Re-cap:

We heard the heart beat

We got our first ultrasound

And I Gained 15 pounds!

The Second Trimester

The second trimester was a whole hell of a lot better then the first. I felt semi-normal (besides the extra poundage). I was starting to show a bit so I didn't look like I was just "letting myself go" and the cat was out of the bag. By this point everyone knew that I was pregnant and it was a secret no longer :)

I took my very first belly picture the 14th week and was so excited that I had that little bump (although looking back on it it doesn't look like a pregnant tummy at all just a food baby)

14 weeks

That bump is now about 35 X that size aaaaaaaaaaaand not so cute!

We got more ultra sounds in the second trimester; the doctors office we were going to was BRAND SPANKIN NEW, they had state-of-the-arc (is that how you spell that??) equipment, our ultra sounds where amazingly clear and we saw our perfect little baby in all its glory. This would have been the time to find out the sex but, we opted not to find out and so our little ones genitalia still have not been seen! I figure we will let he/she show us when he/she comes out :)

Baby McMonigle

And obviously, this is OUR baby it looks just like The Husband already, that profile!?!? Definitely a McMonigle :)

During the second trimester we decided--after much thought--it would be in our best interest to switch doctors.

Best decision EVER!

The doctor we now have is A-mazing! She is so thoughtful and personable, she knows our names and remembers us when we go into see her and for the simple fact that she is going to be seeing a whole lot MORE of me (if you know what I mean) it is comforting to know that she genuinely cares.

Also during this trimester we started our birthing classes. We decided to give hypnobirthing a go and it was also one of the best decisions we have made thus far. I am so excited and confident to give birth it would probably make you sick. No. . . really!

Second trimester re-cap: Started to actually look pregnant Got to see our little Snug (which BTW is the babies nickname, perhaps I'll elaborate, perhaps not.) Switched doctors Started our birthing class.

The Third Trimester

We are now in our third trimester. I am currently 31 weeks 3 days. We have just finished our birthing class and feel very prepared and excited to give birth, I will elaborate on a different post as there is a lot of information I would like to document.

One Monday we had another ultrasound, I was very happy to see that our baby is still very much alive! Although we didn't get to see much as we had our eyes closed most of the time, just in case the genitalia was obvious, we were taking NO RISKS!

I have had this anxiety that starts about 24 hours before our appointments and lasts until I KNOW that my baby is still kickin' in there, I am happy to say that I no longer get this anxiety. I feel this little Snug moving around inside me all the time and let me tell you it is an amazing feeling.

Thus far I have absolutely loved being pregnant!

I love knowing that I am growing a perfect little being inside of me and that one day soon I will get to meet him or her. I am so in love with this baby already.

Much Love

P.S I realize this post is far to long but if you have gotten this far thanks for reading along. I will elaborate on some of the topics discussed in separate posts.

The birthing process

2010-03-01T12:39:00.000-08:00

So seeing as how I will be giving birth in like 5 months I think about it ALOT. Its weird I'm not to concerned about it, it just crosses my mind many times a day. Hubs and I are doing Hypnobirthing, and going the all naturaaaal way. I am pretty excited to start with our hypnobirthing classes I have heard lots of great things about it. So how was your birthing experience?? Was it good, bad, ugly, discusting, wonderful, empowering?? I'd like to hear your stories!!
Love

Great News Everyone

2010-02-23T15:26:00.000-08:00

I know I'm the worlds worst blogger--I know.
But I don't care, not one bit because I enjoy it okay?
Now that that's straightened up I have some fabulous news . . . The hubs and I are Pregnant!
Yes Yes its true I'm not just getting fat, I am in fact growing a fetus.
We couldn't be happier. We are due at the end of August! There is so much information to take in during this time in our lives.
Birthing centers, hospitals, doctors, midwives, natural births, epiderals, plastic clamps, hypnobirthing and the list could go on, and on, and-on-and-on
I will tell you all about our choices at a different time.
At this time I would like to as (maybe even beg a little) for all--3-- of you who read this blog to please go over to this mans blog RYAN MARSHALL and read about his swell efforts to bring light to a dim situation. It won't take you very long and I'm sure you will even get a good laugh out of it!!
Stay tuned (haha) I will tell you all about our birth plan and such
Love

Death

2010-02-14T19:35:00.000-08:00

To a lot of people death is a horribly sad event.
To me death is sad but its not in a way.
I know that I will see my loved ones again!!
I KNOW IT and that gives me a lot of comfort.
I am so thankful for that comfort
love

GIVEAWAY

2009-12-14T09:11:00.000-08:00

Ok I don't normally do this. Actually, I never do but . . .

This is the last day to enter THIS fabulous giveaway!!! So GO GO GO

Lots of Love

Goodness Gracious

2009-11-09T13:22:00.000-08:00

Wow it has been quite awhile since I posted anything on here--it seems I only post when things are going wrong. And lately things have been perfect. Wonderful really.
To bring you up to speed.....

Halloween has come and gone; I love this time of year.
I got baptized on Sunday by hubs. It was one of the most amazing moments of my life.
Hubs Job is great--he loves it.
My Job(s) are pretty swell also. I am going to have about a month off one of my jobs (the one I work at on Tuesdays and Thursdays) so that will be a nice break. I plan on doing lots of homework.
School is really kicking my butt for whatever reason, not sure why I'm only taking two classes but they're much harder then I expected.
My husband is the greatest man in the world

I am so thankful for all of the people I have recently met that have helped me through this journey in life. I can't begin to thank them all.
I am also very thankful for the Gospel and for my Heavenly Father

Holy Matrimony

2009-10-16T07:17:00.000-07:00

I'm married I'm Married I'M MARRIED :) And It's so Great!!!

HELP ME WITH MY WEBSITE PLEASE!!!!

2009-10-05T07:11:00.000-07:00

Ok everyone for my english class this semester I am creating a website (actually its a blog pretty much) and my topic is "How to maintain a Happy, Healthy Marriage". I would like everyones advice (one piece of advice; the best you've got) on how you maintain a happy healthy marriage!!!

Also for my report (which I am having major troubles with) I am writing about the effects counseling have on a marriage in distress. So if any of you have experience with this I would love to hear your story and how counseling did (or didn't) help your marriage!!!

I would really really appreciate any feed back you can give!!! Thank you so much!!

Love

Sesame Street

2009-09-10T08:30:00.001-07:00

Ok for the record...
Sesame is a great show but I'm really Really REALLY sick of watching; listening to; hearing the exact same sesame streets over and over!!
Seriously people there are about 11 episodes and thats it. So I tend to hear the same ones about every 11 days!!
Will someone do me a favor and write a letter asking them to please please please ~~for the sake of my sanity~~ for the kids I nanny to make some new episodes??
Thanks :)
Love

Wow

2009-09-10T08:21:00.000-07:00

It has been a really long time since I posted, Life is good :)

Patrick and I are getting married in a month from today and I can't wait. I really am so excited!
We're going to look at a house to rent today; although I don't think its really an option, we want to buy and not rent so I think we are just going to take that leap and do it. Its a little bit scary since Patrick just barley got a new job and such but I think we can do it. I just don't want to miss the oppertunity with the intrest rates being so low and the 8000 dollar credit from the government for being first time home owners. It just seems like we would really regret it if we didn't take advantage of this time. So wish us luck!!

I'm back to working normal hourse and such and going to school.
I'm taking Anatomy and Physiology, and also Engilsh 2010. School is already stressful but I'm trying to make the best of it. I was really close (one click away to be exact) to dropping my classes, they're so expensive and its not really money we have right now but I think I'm just going to go for it. I feel like if I take a break now I will never go back so I'm gonna keep on going :)

I'm SO Happy that Patrick got a job. Its a pretty good job and one of the best things about it in my opinion is that it has benefits!!!
I was reading about maternity insurance the other day and was very discouraged thinking we could never afford a 6,000 dollar deductable, but with Patricks job offering health insurance I'm feeling a little bit better about that situation. We both really want a baby so bad. We want to wait till we have a place to live ( a house of our own perferably) and finances together but I feel like if we wait till we are "financially ready" It will never happen so I think we'll focus on the house first and then maybe start thinking about a baby :).

Anyway off to watch the rest of seasame street :)
Love

Happy List

2009-08-20T16:28:00.001-07:00

This is my list of 10 things that are making me happy right now (like this week)
1. My fiances encouraging words
2. Eli
3. My photographer
4. Wearing a sweatshirt inside even though its 100 degrees outside
5. This Scripture (D & C 78:17-19)
6. The progress of the wedding plans.
7. NieNies Blog
8. Summer
9. Corn and black bean salsa
10. One (of the 15) books I'm reading right now broken soup

Will you please help me??

2009-08-20T15:39:00.000-07:00

I can't figure out how to add buttons on my blog.
I need help....
Can someone tell me or show me a step by step?
I would really appreciate it :)
Love

Having a really rough time!

2009-08-19T12:50:00.000-07:00

I'm having a bit of a hard time lately.

There are so many things that need to be done and so little time to do them. Planning a wedding is hard work, planning a wedding with little money is even harder.

I'm trying not to stress I really am but its not working. Everything seems to be falling apart. I get my hopes up and then they are just smashed again.

I am discouraged to say the least.

Patrick got a job we thought it was going to be great, it wasn't the job he was looking for but we were getting used to the idea. And after months and months of searching things were getting desperate. He goes in for his first day and we find out he was totally lied to, they were very deceiving in the interviewing process, in the schedule in everything, he went in to be a carpet cleaner at a "carpet cleaning company" he is now going door to door selling home maintenance systems aka a kirby.

He hates it. He works from 10 in the morning till 8 at night and basically gets nothing done, they drive around in a van full of people trying to sell these things. It sucks. I feel so bad for him. He is continuing to look for something else but is now basically stuck in this job until something else comes along.

We are both so frustrated.

We're getting married in less then 2 months, we need a place to live, insurance and a steady income we have very little money and are having no luck in finding a job.

A few weeks ago we were both in a really good place. We were happy, we were hopeful, we had faith that everything was going to work out.

Those happy feelings, thoughts and emotions are not around and I'm having a really hard time gaining them back.

I don't know where to start.

I want and NEED to have faith.

I need to trust in God, that he will always see me through

I don't know how to get back on that path.

*HAPPY**

2009-08-01T10:42:00.000-07:00

I'm getting married!!! and I can't wait!!!!!
love

Clarify

2009-07-14T14:00:00.000-07:00

I feel like I should clarify that my parents are two very amazing people whom I love with all of my heart, although we don't see eye to eye on everything I love them so much. They are very sweet and very kind people :)

Love

LDS

2009-07-14T13:27:00.000-07:00

This may be a long post, bare with me.

I have grown up in Utah almost my whole life and have been surrounded by the LDS faith for numerous years. I grew up in a very religious house, My parents are very Christian and attend a Christian church every Sunday faithfully. They have always taught me acceptance which is something I have also been taught in church my whole life. They've taught me to accept people for who they are and to love them, yet whenever the subject of Mormons or Mormonism comes up they along with many others of the Christian faith are anything but acceptant. They say disrespectful things and make fun, they say it is a cult and that they are not followers of Jesus, and this to me is not acceptance.

I decided a few months ago (probably 6 or 8 months ago) that I was going to find out on my own what the LDS church was all about. What they represent, who they worship, what they believe etc. I made it my goal to make my own opinions and to no longer just go by what my parents believe. After reading numerous books, taking to many people of the LDS faith (asking questions and such)touring one of the LDS temples and praying I have decided the LDS church is the church I wish to attend. I know this is going to come as quite a shock to many people including my parents, friends and family but this is my decision. I hope this doesn't change how any of you feel about me, I am still the same person with the same personality and the same sense of humor, I don't all the sudden hate gay people, think smokers are going to hell nor do I feel I am all the sudden this holy person who has special rights.

I have a lot of learning and growing to do in my faith and in my life in general. I am working on becoming a better person, learning acceptance and living a life God would be proud of. I am not telling you all this because I want you to do the same thing, I'm not trying to convince any of you that your beliefs are wrong or right I simply HAD to get this off my chest I feel I have been hiding something and I shouldn't feel that way. So there you go everyone :) I love you all and hope your days are amazing.

Love

Happy little list

2009-07-03T08:45:00.000-07:00

I love to make list.
To do lists.
Grocery lists.
Hit lists. (Just kidding :))
So OF COURSE I would love to make a happy list.
Here is mine!!
My list of 6 Happies
1. Moss, I just love moss its pretty to me. I even have a little moss terarium that makes me happy. :)
2. My daddy. He is an amazing person, his love and kindness never ceases to amaze me. I love my daddy so much.
3. The smell of a camp fire (but not in my hair)
4. The belly laugh!
5. Being kissed on the forhead by boy.
6. Love. Being in love. Watching people fall in love. Hearing a child say " I love You"
7. Pushing harder then I thought I could. Enduring
Opps that was 7 O well got carried away!!
Write your happy list, it'll make you happy!!
Love

The Fourth of July

2009-07-03T08:37:00.000-07:00

The Fourth of July to me is an especially magical time!! I love the fireworks, the company, the hotdogs, and the excitement. The Fourth of July is my favorite Holiday for so many reasons. I'm like a child on christmas, I'm so excited to lay on my blanket in good old Sugar House Park and watch those wonderful things light up the sky. I love the excitement around me, the bands playing, the atmosphere, EVERYTHING. I just love it.
Sugar House is oh so fun on the Fourth, Yes the traffic sucks it takes 6.2 hours to get out after the show it takes about that to find a parking spot in the first place and even when you find one its usually 3 miles away but I would walk 6 miles if I had to :) Its that good!! If you all live in the dandy state of Utah I'm sure you know what I mean. I hope you all have a fabulous Fourth of July. What is the Fourth of July to you??
Love

Time Travel

2009-06-17T09:49:00.000-07:00

The Time Travelers Wife is one of my favorite books EVER. I loved every second of it and am about to read it again which I never do!! The book is amazing everything about it, it paints such a beautiful picture and you feel like you're their experiencing it. If you have not read the book you should totally read it. And the reason for this post..... The Time Travelers Wife is now a MOVIE!!!!! Yes it comes out in Aug. And I cannot wait!! I hope it lives up to my expectations!!! I almost died when I saw the trailer and then saw it again and again and again, Yes I'm THAT excited!!!

Today

2009-06-04T10:14:00.001-07:00

Is a beautiful day. A lot has happened since the last time I posted, Here is an update.

This is my last week nannying for the family I nanny for. I am very sad about this but know times are tough and everyone must do what they need financialy. I will still be in their lives I'm hoping to come by AT LEAST once a week to visit.
I got a new job as a nanny. I am going to nanny 2 ~~little~~ girls for the summer. I am excited this is going to be very different for me. I have never really cared for older children. (Their ages are 9 and 12). We are planning a fantastic summer for the girls which consists of, Swimming (ALOT), The zoo, The aquarium, The musem and lots of other fun things. I am ready for whatever is to come.
I got a new car!!! Hooray! I've been looking for a long time but wasn't able to find what I wanted/needed in my price range. But I found one! Its a mazda 6 and I couldn't be happier.

On with the house update. The house is coming along very well. The new carpet is coming sometime this week and after it is in our lives will finally FINALLY go back to "normal" or what we consider to be :)

Love

I try

2009-05-28T10:42:00.000-07:00

I really try hard not to be judgmental but sometimes I want to punch peoples faces. It usually is when I see a parent doing something crazy with/too their child. I am not a parent I shouldn't judge what others do with there kids but honestly people sometimes I want to punch dumb parents.

AnyWhooooooo
This has been a hard week. Trying to keep my head up.
Love

Looking up

2009-05-21T10:00:00.000-07:00

Things are starting to look up!! My stitches are out and I don't have to use crutches anymore!! Hooray. I've been going absolutly crazy lately feeling like all I can do is sit around but my foot is feeling great and I bet I'll be able to go running by next week sometime :) Thank you all for your encouragment. The house is also getting put back together and that makes me very happy. We picked out all the paint, carpet, tile, vanity ect. last night and today it will be put to good use :)
For this Memorial weekend we have decided not to go anywhere although we usually do. We are going to go to the zoo and fix the house up some more it should be a good weekend nonetheless. What are you all doing this Memorial Day weekend?
I hope you all are having a fabulous day!
Love

Can we get married yet??

2009-05-20T10:26:00.000-07:00

This is the question I just asked Patrick Haha I'll let you all know the answer.
Sorry no blogging lately.
I'll be back in action in no time
Love

Sometimes

2009-05-15T13:11:00.000-07:00

Life is just so frustrating.
This to shall pass
I hope you all are having beautiful days
Love

This to shall pass

2009-05-12T10:07:00.000-07:00

So we have been having issues with Patricks moms house lately. I'm trying to keep my head up and not let things get to me but I"VE HAD ENOUGH. Its one thing after another.

FIRST we found a leak in the laundry room coming from the kitchen, the leak was not the problem the mold caused by the leak was! We (when I say we I mean starfish) had to remove a large portion of sheet rock, clean the mold, let it dry, clean it again with some mold cleaner let it dry, (in the mean time all the stuff from the laundry room is in our room the room is a disaster and as most of you know I CANNOT sleep in a messy room so Patrick and I made a *Temperary* bed on the living room floor, that was a month ago) And we were fianlly ready to get things put back together when...

SECOND The basement floods, not just one room or a little but THE ENTIRE BASEMENT it had about 2 inches of water over the entire floor. ( The washer was not hooked up and I was unaware, I did laundry and thats how the flood happened) So we not only have a torn up laundry room but we have water drenching the entire basement. This was a problem. We had to call a company to come and fix the problem. They had to move around stuff in every room so not only is our room a disaster, the bathroom is a disaster and everyother room is a disaster as well. The basement is not livable so our temporary bed has turned into a bit more then that. We fianally got all of that taken care of the walls were dry the carpet was dry all we needed to do was clean the carpets, replace the padding and get a new vanity for the bathroom because it got wet and was also moldy. So we are finally ready to start getting things back together when...

THIRD Patrick is taking out the vanity that is old and finds that behind it the wall is wet. Very wet. So he cuts a hole and discovers MORE MOLD. There is another leak coming from the upstairs bathroom into the downstairs bathroom. The mold has to be cleaned more sheet rock needs to be replaced. The leak needed to be located and fixed. Patrick is feeling pretty bad everyt time he turns around he gets another slap in the face. My poor Starfish I feel so bad. So yesterday he found the leak and fixed it, in doing so had to tear apart the upstairs bathroom so basically we had no bathrooms. But we have made progress. The bathroom upstaris leak is fixed and put back together. The down stairs bathroom is being repaired today!! We are moving forward finally. I'm praying nothing else will happen and we can get back to normal... whatever that is.

In the mean time all this is happening, I stepped Jumped on a piece of glass and cut a huge slice in my foot. I had to get 12 stiches and have to walk on crutches for the next 10 days. I can't help with anything around the house and feel completly useless. But I'm trying to keep my head up and make starfish feel better about the whole situation as well.

This to shall pass

Love

Comeing to an end

2009-05-07T10:39:00.000-07:00

There are a few things that need to come to an end, I just can't seem to kick them.
I decided if I write about it on here it will be more permanent then just saying it so here it is.

I'm done trying to be your friend, I'm here if you want me but I'm not gonna waste the energy if you aren't willing to try.
I'm done with the bad habits I've fallen into lately, FOR REAL THIS TIME!!!

(I always try to kick this bad habit, it is the reason for writing this post, but it never works so this post is for you bad habit!!!)

I'm done skipping breakfast. I will eat breakfast!!!!

That's all.

Now on to the next thing.... What to get my lovely mom for mothers day.... I'm not procrastinating i just can't figure out what to get her? I'm making her a lovely crafty thing but i need something else as well... Any ideas?

Hope your days are lovely and filled with beautiful things!

MY little list of love

2009-05-06T10:30:00.000-07:00

I'm feeling a bit down latley. Bleh just one of those days thats turned into one of those weeks.
I thought writting a list of things I love at this very moment might help
Things I Love At This Very Moment

Coffee with to much creamer
Fresh mangos
Elephants
Orchids
Hearing the babies laugh
My black hat
Lotion
Making lists that me me feel better

Hope your all haveing a lovely day ;)

love

What a shame

2009-05-05T10:21:00.000-07:00

What ever happend to the innocence of youth??
There is no such thing these days and it really gets to me.
Little girls running around in near to nothing
Little boys using dirty language and disrespecting their elders.
What is this world coming to.
I think we need to preserve the innocence of our youth!
How you ask??
I'm not sure yet but I'm gonna figure it out because before long we won't even remember what the word innocent means, we won't know what it looks like or what it sounds like we won't know how to teach it or learn it or show it and this is a shame. :(

Tennis Shoes Series

2009-05-05T10:03:00.000-07:00

Finals are over and I find myself with nothing to write on my TO DO list I don't know whether to be happy or sad about it but while I have some spare time I suppose I'll do some reading. At this moment I am reading the "Tennis shoes" series by Chris Heimerdinger

and I must admit I am hooked!! I really have enjoyed the books! Take a look if you get a chance!

What are you all reading??

Radiant

2009-05-04T10:27:00.000-07:00

The Photographs this man takes of his wife and step son are incredible. And the things he writes so precious.
Check out his blog
http://pacingthepanicroom.blogspot.com/
Love

Elephants

2009-05-01T10:30:00.001-07:00

Elephants are amazing creatures! They are my favorite animal in the whole wide world! Here are some fun facts about them.

They can swim long distances and use their trunk the a snorkle (genious)
They're gestation period is 22 months Poor things
They don't ween their babies till they're 6-8 years old, just in time for the next little (or should i say HUGE) one.
75 percent of the sounds they make are to low for humans to hear.
Flopping their ears is a sign of excitment or joy isn't that adorable

Aren't they amazing??
Love

Reading

2009-04-30T10:33:00.000-07:00

I love reading and now that the semester is over I will have more time to read!!!! So I need recomendations! Anyone have an amazing book they want me to read??
Thanks :)

Theres just something about

2009-04-24T10:13:00.000-07:00

There's just something about unloading the silverware from the dishwasher that really urks me. I don't mind the glasses, the bowls, the plates but I HATE the silverware its just so annoying. Anyway We're in beautiful San Diego and it is lovely here today! Padres game tonight anyone??
P.S I'd like to apologise for the last post it was a bit rude so I'm sorry.
Have a splended day!

I hope your night was really great

2009-04-17T10:25:00.000-07:00

So I'm driving down the street about 3 days ago when something flies in my eye. I stop at the next stop light and am trying to not crash into the car in front of me also while trying to get whatever object that flew in my eye OUT.

When all the sudden the man behind me starts honking. Startled, and thinking I just sat through the whole green light and made this poor man miss his terribly important meeting I look up, but the light is not green it is still red. So I give the man a weird look in my rearview while still trying to get the thing out of my eye, it is then i notice that the man looks furious.

I try to avoid looking at him and start to drive because the light has turned green by now, at this point I'm trying to think if I cut him off or stopped to fast, I couldn't think of anything, He speeds passed me flips me off and says a naughty word to me I still have no idea why he is so angry at me.

So at the next light I have to stop right next to him, lucky me. And i glance over and he is imitating putting on mascara, and flips me off. The man was angry because he thought i was putting on make up while driving. I WASN'T JERK I was getting a forigen object out of my eye. I hope he had a lovely night anyway!

Enjoy

Ain't nothing pretty about that.

2009-04-17T10:16:00.000-07:00

First off let me say I love my job.
I don't love walking around smelling like spit up and baby poop.
I've changed many a diapers in my life and let me tell you, I have never seen poo like the poo that comes out of the sweet 18 month old I nanny. I swear there is a medium size man in his colon shoveling that stuff out and adding his along with it. The kid poops out his diaper up his back and into his hair. Normal?? I think not.

Diamonds are girls best friend... Right???

2009-03-24T10:30:00.000-07:00

This lady
http://scarymommy.com/
Is giving away... Yes you heard right, giving away Diamond earings all you have to do is subscribe to her Blog!!!! Do it!
Loves

I want.....

2009-03-24T10:23:00.000-07:00

To marry Patrick. There I said it. Now the world knows :)

HOW COULD I FORGET

2009-03-10T06:38:00.000-07:00

I forgot to tell you all that patrick and I got a PUPPY!!! How could I forget!! She is the cutest thing in the whole world. So now we have a son (pinky the kitty) and now a daughter ( Tephra the sweetest puppy in the world.) I will post pictures of her soon. Shes super!! Pinky absolutly hates her but we are working on it. He's been a very naughty kitty latley!!!

sweaty palms

2009-03-10T06:33:00.000-07:00

So I went to the gym today to a class called "boot camp" I would highly recomend it to anyone who wants a good work out its awesome I really enjoy it but the reason for righting this is just to express how much I HATE and am discusted with how many times i touched not my OWN but someone elses sweat today. It was so nasty I can't even explain to you i HATE that about gym classes especially one of this nature where you touch the same equipment as others its just so gross and there is really no way around it sometimes. But I had a good work out and I'm really really sore!! A good thing!!!

Burnt Toast

2009-02-24T19:44:00.000-08:00

Today Patrick and I went on a tour of the Draper temple!! It was so amazing, I highly recomend that everyone goes and sees it you won't regret it. The architecture, paintings, stained glass, chandalers, everything is just amazing and thats really all I can say about it.
Patrick just made me a grilled cheese sammy and its really yummy, then he made his own and it got a but burnt and he's angry about it. But he ate it anyway!!
Tonight is going to be a fun night, ashley is coming over to hang out with patrick and i.
I'm enjoying my days off work. I have work off until monday and its wonderful! I love my job but a break is nice!!! Off to eat now

Ok Ok

2009-02-18T09:53:00.000-08:00

Soooooo I've been horrible about this blog!!! But I'm going to be better about it.
Here is a little update:
Patrick isn't building houses anymore, as you all know there's not much of a need for that with this economy so he's building me something instead :) What is it you ask?? Well I'm not sure! Its a big suprise and I can't WAIT to see it.
School is really irratating right now, my computer homework took me 4 hours last night 4 HOURSSSSS so frustrating but I still love it. I love learning I know I'm a nerd :)
I have work off ALL next week. The family I nanny is going out of town. I'm excited for a week off!!
Patrick and I cannot wait to get a house. We are going to start looking SOON!!
And one last thing, I'm counting down the days till summer!! I cannot stand this wintery cold any longer! Well that is all for now
Loves

So long

2009-01-22T10:34:00.000-08:00

Its been a while since i posted anything on here.
I thought I'd vent about how much i HATE winter..
Yes, I realise hate is a strong word but I honestly can say i HATE it!
Its cold
Its slippery
I can't go swimming.
I can't even go outside with out almost dying of hypothermea.
I HATE it i can't stand it any more.
I want to get out of this winter
I'm going to AZ for the winter... starting next winter
I HATE WINTER
Everything about it
It makes me mad
It makes me sad
It makes me annoyed
It makes me cranky
It makes me annoying
It makes me CRAZY!!!!
I'm literally going crazy.
Whewwww I feel a little better after that not much but a little
:(
Hmmmphhhh

so excited

2008-12-19T09:40:00.000-08:00

Ok so let me just tell you the things I'm excited for!!!
*Patrick and I are getting a house!!!! SOON!!
*Summer
*Christmas
I'm very happy right now
Even the snow and wind and cold can't make me mad
well maybe if I think to much about it it can.
I hope all your days are Great!!
Love Me

What a lovely day

2008-11-27T09:12:00.000-08:00

I'm sittin here eating a yummy bunt cake, driking coffee and listening to good old Tom Petty Wildflowers! Today is a great day!! Happy Thanksgiving :)

Aussy

2008-11-21T10:05:00.000-08:00

Austrailian Pink Floyd was awesome. I loved it and had such a great time. They did the whole Wall album I loved it! To bad it wasn't the real pink floyd!!!!

Sooo anyway, this Thanksgiving is going to be the first Thanksgiving that I'm away from my parents. Its weird but its going to be fun.. Pleasent Grove with Patricks family. I'm making these yummy mashed potatoes... I figure you can't sqrew up mashed potatoes so they should be delicioso!!
Back to work I go

Seriously??

2008-11-13T10:25:00.000-08:00

This is stupid and I want to rub pickles all over this girl!!!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ta-FGE7QELQ

FRUSTRATED

2008-11-11T10:13:00.000-08:00

I'm so frustrated, I called SLCC to get a simple question answered and the lady was SO dumb. She didn't have a clue what she was talking about. Don't you think they would and should higher smart people at a college????? Dumb Lady

Quote

2008-11-10T10:12:00.000-08:00

Go into the world and do well, But more importatntly go into the world and do good!!

This is what I will teach my children!! I wish more people in our world did just this!!

Proposition 8

2008-11-10T10:03:00.000-08:00

Let me get this straight... I'm confused, the majority of people voted YES on prop 8 therefore banning same sex marriage in the state of california? Its a done deal am I correct?? The votes are in the people have spoken, I don't understand why people are still protesting, yes it is horrible that the rights of two people to marry have been taken away simply because they are the same sex, yes it is horrible to tell someone they cannot get married to the person they love, the person they want to spend the rest of their lives with because they are not a man and a women. But if the final votes are in I don't understand. Please clerify

Tact is for people who aren't witty enough to be sarcastic

2008-10-27T10:24:00.001-07:00

AMEN

Kidney Infection

2008-10-16T10:12:00.001-07:00

Here's the story
Tuesday night McCall wakes up in the middle of the night with a horrible pain in her "lower back" she tries to go back to sleep but cannot because it hurts SO bad. So she hobbles up stairs (having to stop twice on the way up because her "lower back " hurt SO bad) So she gets up stairs and tells her mom that there is something wrong with her, by this time she is crying and vomitting because she's in such pain. SOO McCall and Mom go to E.R. McCall has to get an I.V. Yes that right people McCall gets her first I.V. Ever but not without freaking out, crying, yelling at the nurse, telling the nurse she better be good at this, and crying some more but I DID IT YEAYYYY!!! I'm pretty proud of myself! So They give me Morphine through my I.V which is pretty weird and it didn't help with the pain so they give me more and it still didn't work so they give me more and some other medicine and i was feeling pretty good probabley better then i felt before this whole thing started haha. So they took my blood which i saw and almost vomitted again... And a pee sample and determined I have a pretty bad kidney infection and perhaps kidney stones it SUCKS its so freaking painful I can't even tell you. If i had had children i bet this pain would be worse then giving birth to them but I can't be sure seeing as how i have never given birth. Anyway I'm home now. Still have this damn I.V. still in pain, still have a kidney infection BUT its feeling better already. Anyway hope you all had a better week then me :)
Love

Simply Beautiful

2008-10-09T10:00:00.000-07:00

I have the most amazing job.
I get to help and watch as 2 amazing little babies learn and grow.
I get to see the joy and happiness that seeps from every inch of them when they accomplish the simplest things.
I get to teach them new things each day and learn from their innocent beautiful spirits!
I love my job.

Secret

2008-10-01T10:11:00.000-07:00

Post secret makes me laugh I really enjoy it! They put up new ones on the website every week and they never cease to make me smile sometimes frown.

Its October!! My favorite month of the year. The weather is beautiful the changing colors are nice, its just an all around good month. The only bad thing is the snow that comes shortly after if not during this beautiful month. I'm going to try to be optimistic about the winter... but winter blues are hard to shake!!

Maybe I'll go shopping for winter clothes that should brighten my spirits!! I really need some new clothes haha I think I will do that.

Loves

Can't be bothered

2008-09-11T10:10:00.000-07:00

I decided that that is the best way to live life in a "can't be bothered" way. If you don't let little stupid childish things bother you then you can't be bothered!! Don't bother with petty things. Just be happy and and don't let things get to you! It works I promise!! Anyway I'm hoping to go camping one last time before the lovely beautiful wonderful white stuff comes down upon us all. Its going to be cold and stuff but it will be lovely.
P.S I don't really think all those things about the snow that was sarcasm if you really wanna know what I think.... Well I dislike that stuff!!
Love Me

Yellowstoned

2008-09-03T09:58:00.000-07:00

Its been a while since I wrote on here. Patrick and I went to Yellowstone and it was amazing!! We saw 3 bears maybe 4 bears but the fourth could have just been the third but not sure anyway we also so a wolf, lots of bison, cyote don't know how to spell that. And some cool birds. It was so fun we went horse back riding and fishing and looked at all the tourist atractions of course. It was a super trip!!

Baby bear

2008-08-15T10:16:00.000-07:00

So i just wanted to tell you all that i'm so sore i think i might die. I went to the gym for the first time in a very very long time and I can't move correctly!! Its like past the point where it feels good its like really really sore. Moral of the story is I can't wait for the weekend so I can sleep!! On a different note... I can't wait for school to start I'm excited!! And And And Patrick and I are going to Yellow stone, Jackson hole and some other places for about a week!!! I'm so excited to get away for a while. It will probabley be the last little vacation for a long time. Well other then moab. But I'm so so excited for Yellow stone my goal is to see a bear and a baby one and lots of other animals and old faithful!! Oh and to go horse back riding!!!! I can't wait. On this day next week aka next friday Patrick and I will be driving to Yellowstone!!!!!
:)

Big Mac

2008-08-01T09:36:00.000-07:00

I have never in my life eaten a big mac. I think thats pretty special. How many people can say that?? I think I'll never try one. Anyway today is friday and We're going camping well Patricks going backpacking, I'm not going along this time but I'm going camping! I'm drinking a rockstar as we speak the red kind I think its pomagranite. I wouldn't recomend it.
McCall

Something new

2008-07-31T12:51:00.000-07:00

So this has been a pretty uneventful week it has gone by fast though. I just vacuumed and that was refreshing haha. Patrick and I rearanged his room and I have to say I like it, it is also refreshing something new you know, thats always good. We are going hiking today it should be fun I up bells... Yea that sounds good. This week of work has dirtied my clothes. On Tuesday i got thrown up on down my shirt in my hair everywhere. Then Wednesday I got poop on my shirt. Eli poop. And today well today has been good so far no foriegn things on my clothing. Anyway I'm off to do something else.
: )

Love

2008-07-16T13:24:00.000-07:00

"Its better to have love and lost then to never have loved at all." I have mixed emotions about this statement. I can't decide if its true or not. Hmmmm

The first 48

2008-07-16T13:07:00.000-07:00

So yesterday I watched "The first 48" for like 3 hours and freaked myself out. I don't know why I watch those shows they just scare me for the rest of the night. I would not go anywhere last night by myself I made Patrick come with me, to the kitchen to the basement to the garage everywhere. Yet i still watch the show I can't help. Well Patrick is goin to write a blog on here someday I don't know when that day will come BUT it will. Is it strange that I google EVERYTHING?? I think that its normal I just want to be informed is that to much to ask? I really want to go hiking tonight so I will try to talk my other half into it. Tommorrow when I write on this thing I will have a lovely story to tell about our adventure I hope : ]

Questionable

2008-07-15T13:05:00.000-07:00

I realise this is titled Patrick and McCall, in reality it will most likely just be McCall here to tell you about our wonderful super duper fun exciting lives : )

Patrick And McCall

Amazing!

Day One: Something you hate about yourself

OHHH Boy

A Day Late And A Dollar Short

Letters To You # 1

A month?

The birth of Kainen Jay

Holy cow

Our birth story

It's been crazy around here!!

Just when I thought. . .

An update of sorts

Natural Vehicle of Nature

Calling All Addicts

Avoiding the sneeze at all costs

Terrible, No Good Habit

Hypno WHAT

All Natural

Documentation

The birthing process

Great News Everyone

Death

GIVEAWAY

Goodness Gracious

Holy Matrimony

HELP ME WITH MY WEBSITE PLEASE!!!!

Sesame Street

Wow

Happy List

Will you please help me??

Having a really rough time!

***HAPPY****

Clarify

LDS

Happy little list

The Fourth of July

Time Travel

Today

I try

Looking up

Can we get married yet??

Sometimes

This to shall pass

Comeing to an end

MY little list of love

What a shame

Tennis Shoes Series

Radiant

Elephants

Reading

Theres just something about

I hope your night was really great

Ain't nothing pretty about that.

Diamonds are girls best friend... Right???

I want.....

HOW COULD I FORGET

sweaty palms

Burnt Toast

Ok Ok

So long

so excited

What a lovely day

Aussy

Seriously??

FRUSTRATED

Quote

Proposition 8

Tact is for people who aren't witty enough to be sarcastic

Kidney Infection

Simply Beautiful

Secret

Can't be bothered

Yellowstoned

Baby bear

Big Mac

Something new

Love

The first 48

Questionable

*HAPPY**