Amazing!

Baby Jay Is amazing!! That's really all you need to know but I will give you examples for your reading pleasure!!
He now falls asleep ON HIS OWN (No more rocking, bouncing, nursing to sleep he just straight up goes in his crib and falls asleep and with nearly no fuss)!
He sleeps from 8pm to 6am
He smiles and giggles and it's just about the cutest thing ever
He is going on day 4 without his beloved binkie and he is being a real champ.
I love that little boy more than I ever thought possible.
Thanks for being such a good boy Baby Jay Mommy loves you!
XXOO

Day One: Something you hate about yourself

Day One: Something You Hate About Yourself

I could write this post about the stretch marks that now line my boobs or the extra bazzilion pounds that are now clinging to my thighs because I HATE those things about myself, I do. But, I want to write about something I have to think a little bit harder about. . .

I hate my complete lack in self control. I have arguments with myself all day long becuase of the self control I do not posses. Once I get my head around something it's really hard for me to sway from that "something" even if it's not something I consciously choose. It could be--and a lot of the time is--a subconscious decisions. Once it’s decided I can't sway it no matter how hard I try. I have no self control. It's like something bigger than me is living in my brain and controlling my thoughts and subsequently my actions at times. I know I don't want to do something, I know I may regret the something once I have done it yet I cannot tell that bigger thing in my brain NO.

It can be a simple as eating a piece of candy (or the whole box) I know I will be mad at myself after I eat it, I know it is un-healthy and isn't going to help me reach my post-prego weight loss goal yet I CANNOT stop that little --no-- big voice in my head telling me to just eat the damn piece of candy.

I hate not being able to get through a day without having a battle with myself over something because of my lack in self control. I hate the battle.

I hate my lack in self control that is what I hate about myself right now tomorrow it may change, it may be different but today this is it.

OHHH Boy

So I found this little list on a website. I have decided to give it a whirl. This list has some pretty scary subjects and by scary I mean brutally honest, raw subjects that are personal and some controversial so . . . here we go!

Day 01 → Something you hate about yourself.
Day 02 → Something you love about yourself.
Day 03 → Something you have to forgive yourself for.
Day 04 → Something you have to forgive someone for.
Day 05 → Something you hope to do in your life.
Day 06 → Something you hope you never have to do.
Day 07 → Someone who has made your life worth living for.
Day 08 → Someone who made your life hell.
Day 09 → Someone you didn’t want to let go, but just drifted.
Day 10 → Someone you need to let go, or wish you didn’t know.
Day 11 → Something people seem to compliment you the most on.
Day 12 → Something you never get compliments on.
Day 13 → A band or artist that has gotten you through some really tough days. (write a letter.)
Day 14 → A hero that has let you down. (letter)
Day 15 → Something or someone you couldn’t live without, because you’ve tried living without it.
Day 16 → Someone or something you definitely could live without.
Day 17 → A book you’ve read that changed your views on something.
Day 18 → Your views on gay marriage.
Day 19 → What do you think of religion? Or what do you think of politics?
Day 20 → Your views on drugs and alcohol.
Day 21 → (scenario) Your best friend is in a car accident and you two got into a fight an hour before. What do you do?
Day 22 → Something you wish you hadn’t done in your life.
Day 23 → Something you wish you had done in your life.
Day 24 → Make a playlist to someone, and explain why you chose all the songs. (Just post the titles and artists and letter)
Day 25 → The reason you believe you’re still alive today.
Day 26 → Have you ever thought about giving up on life? If so, when and why?
Day 27 → What’s the best thing going for you right now?
Day 28 → What if you were pregnant or got someone pregnant, what would you do?
Day 29 → Something you hope to change about yourself. And why.
Day 30 → A letter to yourself, tell yourself EVERYTHING you love about yourself